01 April 2004

Today it feels almost threatening. The way I feel about him is getting bigger than me. Consuming. And then, luckily, it’s not just him I feel so strongly about. It’s us, together. Him, the way he makes me feel, the way he feels about me, how much we’ll accomplish together. Then it’s big, it’s powerful, but I know it’s only positive.

The lump is still there – in my throat, filling up my chest. But when I stop feeling threatened and trying to run from it, when I stop and look it in the eye, I can’t help but see all the joy and potential there.

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