I've been surfing around today, emotionally reading summaries of what everyone was doing seven years ago today. "Where were you when the Towers came down?" they all ask. For conversation's sake, I was at work. But I didn't go with the rest of the company to crowd around the TV and watch the hours of repeated coverage. I didn't want to know the worst. It's something that became a joking 'rule' at my parents' house a long time ago. I never watch the news, because there's always something that will make me upset. So I don't watch things that upset me.
Reading that, I sound incredibly shallow, but it still doesn't guilt me into wanting to see the 9-11 coverage, or even watch the evening news. Maybe I've been on crisis overload for longer than I can even remember, but I don't want any bad news.
Even after my avoidance of the coverage and conversations of the tragedy, a counselor I saw a couple years later said I probably had post-traumatic stress from the 'event.' C'mon. I was hundreds of miles away and refused information about it. Her theory? I've absorbed other peoples' stress, worry and paranoia about what might happen next.
Am I the only ostrich who doesn't want to rehash it? Are there others out there who still haven't sat through the news broadcasts played everywhere, and repeated on each anniversary?